go away

i walk a lonely road,

"the only road that i have ever known...."

so many worlds away, years gone past, but all the same. always just another road to nowhere, to walk in solitude, as i always have. from wandering desolate suburban nights, to crowded metropolitan subways, reaching out, exploring everything alone. remnants of shattered hopes and dreams litter my path, while i am just a faded negative of the image i used to be. not much energy left for reaching out or exploring. so little left of me, but this loneliness of a withering husk.

people have come and gone within my life, but i've always felt alone. for most of my adolescence, and again for the past few years, i've been more literally alone. in solitude, it is the closest i come to feeling home, it is certainly the most familiar thing in my life, but as the years go by, it grows ever colder. as time drives all hopes away. guess i've never been very comfortable with being this way.

"My shadow's the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating.
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me,
'till then, I'll walk alone..."